I feel really troubled by my slight plumpness. There are scales everywhere at home, and I frequently weigh myself. If the number is a little higher, I feel discouraged, but if it's lower, my mood improves. I engage in erratic dieting, often skipping meals but indulging in random snacks.
I am sensitive to discussions about body shape and even tend to avoid social events . Walking down the street, I find myself constantly comparing my body to those of passersby, often envious of their good figures. I also put in effort to exercise, but all I did never really brings me true satisfaction.
I'm always self-conscious about my slightly plump figure, and most of my wardrobe consists of plus-size clothing. Loose-fitting t-shirts, casual shirts, and wide-leg pants have become my daily attire. Wearing slightly tight clothes makes me feel embarrassed . Of course, I also envy other girls who wear camisoles. I bought some myself, but I only try them on in front of the mirror at home and then reluctantly put it aside.
By chance, I joined a yoga class and bought my first pair of yoga pants. During my first class, as I changed into the yoga pants and followed the instructor in various stretching poses, I felt a surge of confidence from my body inside. The yoga pants hugged and supported me in a tender manner. Looking at myself in the mirror, I felt healthy and strong. I gradually began to accept my unique qualities and stopped demanding too much of myself. The yoga pants became a symbol of my confidence, allowing me to feel the strength and flexibility of my body, awakening a conscious sense of health - that being healthy is beautiful. I embraced my body, no longer being bound by external appearances, and focused more on inner beauty and self-assurance.
I have started to let go of loose and oversized clothing and have embraced wearing well-fitted professional attire, slim-fitting jeans, and figure-flattering dresses. My friends have complimented me on my fashion sense and how much more beautiful I look. I no longer obsess over trying to rid myself of my slightly curvier figure, and I am still me, but happier.
Post time: Jul-11-2023
